You Can't See The Forest For The Trees.

You know those moments when you lie idly soaking up the sun and you feel alive? Like you're really living. Not just existing. It's hard to describe really. The thing is, I haven't felt truly alive for months now. Everything seems so monotonous and dreary. It's college, home, sleep, assignments, tests, movies, trawling the mall and the cycle repeats. I think the only time I've come close to feeling alive these past few months was seeing the Taj Mahal in front of my very own eyes. But there were so many people there, jostling and taking pictures it was hard to just soak in the moment. To just be.

-An excerpt from my old Xanga blog (August 30, 2008)

Read that entry here.

This time a year ago, that was how I felt. A year later, I've finally gotten my wish. A blissful summer holiday spent at the beach. Listening to the waves crash upon the shore, feasting my eyes on the breathtaking scenery and sunsets. Being carefree, no assignments, no deadlines, nothing to worry about for that 4 days and 3 nights.

Bali heals the soul.

Let's start by introducing what my sister calls her beach bag- her hedgehog LeSportSac which is just so insanely cute!

It is known as her beach bag because she only uses it whenever she travels to islands. =.=

We took Air Asia there. This is the view from the plane.

The clouds were so fluffy that day. Like cotton candy. It felt like if I just reached out, I could have plucked them out of the sky.

Some part of Indonesia we were flying over.

Looks like something out of a Geography textbook, doesn't it?

Upon arrival at Ngurah Rai airport, we were immdediately greeted with fragipanis. Oh and we could bypass immigration cause Eu Shen arranged for us to go through the diplomat counter. Skipped the long queues, we did. ;)




The frangipanis were so frangrant! But I couldn't wear them for long because floral scents give me a headache after a while. =/




Anyway, our first stop was to fill our growling tummies with yummylicious food!

We went to this restaurant just 10 minutes away from the airport which was famous for their chicken.

True to their word, the chicken was really very good. I can't remember exactly what we ordered, but I remember everything was supremely crispy and delectable.



If you really want pictures of the food, I think Greg's facebook might have 'em.




This is the hotel we stayed in for the first two nights- Ramayana. Centrally situated in Kuta.

Shopping was really easy since it was within walking distance to the markets and Kuta beach was 5 mintues away by car.




Our room. The hotel is quite old but they've kept it quite nicely I must say.

In the hotel lobby, getting ready to go see the sun set at Uluwatu Temple and watch the Kecak dance.

First glimpse of the breathtaking sunsets in Bali.

The colours just seemed more vivid than usual. It was beautiful! Too bad we didn't have too much time to admire it since we wanted to go watch the Kecak dance. =(

My sister and I waiting for the dance to begin while taking in the picturesque view.
At least our seats were strategic, since we got an awesome view of the stunning scenery.

It was packed to the brim to watch the Kecak dance man. Everyone had to squeeze and squeeze just so that everybody could fit in and sit.

There certainly was no traces of the swine flu effects on tourism in Bali!

These flag like thingies are everywhere in Bali. I wonder what they are for?

To tell the direction of the wind? Or just for decorative purposes? I mean I know the checkered cloth is supposed to ward of evil... guess I should've asked our local guide huh?

Just look at it, doesn't it seem so surreal? My sister said the sunsets there don't feel real. They feel fabricated, like someone painted a backdrop and left it there.

But that's the amazing thing. They are so very real, and the beauty of it just takes your breath away.

Getting ready for the Kecak dance. These were the people who provided the sound effects. I admire the fact that they don't develop sore throats after each performance. They were constantly chanting, singing for close to an hour! Imagine doing that everyday!

Watching that big golden ball slowly set.

The Kecak dance is actually the story of Rama, Sita and Laksamana. If you guys remember, we studied it for SPM BM before. How Rama went to catch the kijang for Sita and told her to stay in the protective circle and left her in the charge of Laksamana but in the end she got captured anyway. I found it easy to understand coz I knew the background of the story but I without that, I would have been feeling kind of lost.
Oh well, at least now we know SPM BM literature is good for something! =P

And look at the crowd! Isn't it crazy?

And yes, that is real fire. The heat was scorching when they did that. I really pitied the people sitting in the front row.

Next, we adjourned to Jimbaran Bay for some scrumptious seafood!
Jimbaran Bay is basically this stretch of beach littered with restaurants serving awesome seafood. So, you can enjoy the seafood whilst listening to the waves and looking out to the sea.

Tried their coconut but was sorely dissapointed coz it wasn't sweet. I think all of us momentarily forgot we were in Indonesia and not Thailand where the coconuts are forever sweet. XD

But seriously, Bali reminded me very much of Thailand for some reason. And it wasn't just me, Greg and my sister thought so too.
I think it might have been because of the traffic and the roads (jammed and narrow) as well as the abundant use of motorbikes. And the shopping! Coz everything was so cheap there!

We tried their famous grilled corn and it was insanely HUGE and filling but supremely yummylicious!

I think it was because they put a layer of syrup or caramel on the corn before grilling it, making it super sweet. (I have a sweet tooth so I enjoyed it. =D)

Oh, and the people at the back of Greg were a little singing troupe. Seranaded us with old songs (obviously in hopes of getting tips) but the lead singer's voice was very melodious.

I think, our one and only group picture. All the others are missing someone! =S

Second day in Bali! Taken right after brekkie in the hotel.

We went for a walk at the market right opposite our hotel.

Quite a number of things are sold there- from souvenirs, to wooden carvings, t-shirts and clothes.

Their paintings was what really captivated me though. So many CHEAP and beautiful paintings over there which would have cost like three times the price over here.

My sister bought a really cool silver and black painting, which I don't have a picture of yet because it hasn't been hung up.

Oh and travel tip! When shopping in Bali (Like China, Thailand, India and Vietnam), you have slash the price by at least half and haggle like your life depended on it. Because otherwise, you're just getting fleeced by these Balinese vendors. =.=

Oh and they have very interesting stuff like this helmet for sale too! I mean, do people actually wear that? 0_o

This was right outside our hotel's bar. We had to go back to our hotel to deposit all our shopping bags!

One of the many stone basins around the hotel. The hotel's staff meticulously arrange a different pattern using the flower petals everyday! Such a tedious job but it's the extra effort that makes the surroundings of the hotel so beautiful.

Our 2 local Balinese guides and our 2 organizers of the trip- hard at work planning the day's itinery.

Kuta Beach!

Weather was super hot and sweltering in Bali. You realy cannot survive without sunnies coz the glare of the sun is so strong.

We passed by loads of paddy fields in Bali too!

Clear blue skies and grenery that stretches for miles and miles...

En route to Tanah Lot to watch the sun set.

The entrance of Tanah Lot.

I love the waves in Bali. They are so much bigger than our own which makes it a sight to see whenever it crashes upon the rocks. And because the waves are larger, the sound the waves is amplified. I don't know about you, but I always feel a lot more peaceful after listening to the waves. They may be loud and angry, but somehow it sets my mind and soul at peace.

And I felt... alive.

I think it's the combination of the picturesque view and the feel of the holiday coupled with the sound of the waves lapping against the shore.
In that instance, warmth spread through my veins, lighting them ablaze.

And I was happy.

Content.

Us, spoiling the view. ^_^

By the way, I am super in love with my Canon camera! I should probably name it...

The setting of the sun cast a golden glow onto the paddy fields.

It was a breathtaking sight indeed.

There were two dogs running across, sprinting across rather, the paddy fields.

Watching them sprint across the field, chasing each other without a care in the world... I could taste freedom.

For those brief moments, freedom became a tangible thing.

I suppose we were all like that once. Running freely across gardens and playgrounds and field with a kind of blithe innocence.

I really like this shot. The silhouette of the trees and people and the pagoda....

Gradually dissappearing.

That night, we had Nasi Padang for dinner.

Greg calls Nasi Padang Indonesian dim sum/buffet. Coz everything came in small portions (like dim sum) and when you finished a dish, they'd replenish it for you (buffet).

My parents- Raja Sehari. LOL XD

After dinner, we headed to Bali Coffee House to just chill before going for a foot massage.

We decided to try the world reknown Kopi Luwak in which the coffee beans have been eaten and er... excreted by the Civet cat. >.<>

Watching the waitress preparing Kopi Luwak (USD$20 for 8g, don't play play).

There we go! The aroma of Kopi Luwak is absolutely yummylicious. But the aftertaste is... interesting. It tasted a bit like berries but yet, not quite. Quite indescribable really.

3rd day, took a walk around Kuta area. This is the beautiful beach.

Made a stop by Starbucks to get drinks since it was so insanely hot! And I dunno why everyone was bruised during the trip. That's my cousin and my sister who both have bruises on their legs. 0_0

For lunch we went to this really quaint place called Bebek Bengil.

I've heard so much about this restaurant and am glad it lived up to its expectations.

Nah, this is the history of how Bebek Bengil got its name.

Bebek Bengil is situated right beside the paddy fields. So lots of greenery while you feast on their yummylicious food.

Again, I felt at peace. Looking out at the paddy fields, feeling the cooling breeze on that hot, hot summer day and enjoying the awesome spread.

Told you Bali is good for the soul. =D

Their signature dish- crispy duck. You can choose to have it with rice or mash.

If you guys ever go, YOU HAVE TO CHOOSE THE MASH because it is TO DIE FOR.

I'm not kidding! Can rival Chilli's mash seriously.

All that buttery goodness that melts in the mouth. Mmmmm.

Aside from that, their BBQ pork ribs was really flavourful too! A must try.

After lunch, we visited Ubud Art Market which had a plethora of things to look, see and buy. Too bad we couldn't stay for long as we had to go and check into our villa- Bidadari Villa.

Aptly name I must say because it was heavenly!


That's their outdoor shower. So you get to shower under the moon, stars/sun, rain. =P

I must say, the view is actually quite nice when you shower at night.

And somehow it feels very... liberating.

Me: Jie, have you ever showered outdoors before? (after I finished showering)

Sis: No wo. This will be the first time.

Me: It feels very... liberating.

Sis: (laughs) Okay, I shall go and liberate myself now and be one with nature.


Lol convo between my sis and I.

Their HEAVENLY bed. Mmmm. I miss the bed!

Their big bathtub. And that's my other sis with a bruise on her leg too. =S

I forgot to resize a picture of our private swimming pool. Aiya, you guys can go check it out on Facebook la.

On our last night, I tried Bintang beer. I'm normally not a big fan of beers (except for the Passionfruit or Apple ones from Belgium Bar) but this one was really light and surprisingly easy to drink.

And so ends my Bali trip! This was us, flying off into the sea. The takeoff and landings are quite scary yet thrilling because if the pilot misjudges, you'll end up in the middle of the sea.


Airport security was a bitch though because of the Jakarta bombings while we were there. Bali was suspected as the next target. =(

Why is it always like this? We travel to some country and surely something happens one.

We go to Bali, Jakarta gets bombed.

We come back from India, and the chain of luxury hotels we were staying in gets bombed (although it was in a different part of India la)

We were in Bangkok when the tsunami hit.

Post September 11, we were holidaying in Europe. (And we didn't have to line up to go to Madam Tussauds or the Eiffel Tower because there were so little tourists! Lol XD)
And when the Y2K bug was supposedly gonna hit, we were in the US if I'm not mistaken.
0_o

Anyway, the last picture for the day. Reliving the feeling of becoming overnight millionaires!

Since everything is by the thousands and millions in rupiahs, instant millionaires we became! ;)

Sigh, I miss travelling. I need a holiday from my holiday.

Oh the irony. =.=

Breakeven

I've decided to include posts labelled under Gastronomic Adventures in which I will introduce good food for you guys to feast your eyes on (just to make you hungry) as well as recommend restaurants which I think are good so you all can go and try it out.

Feel free to recommend awesome restaurants to me too! Would love to go and try out more places to eat at.

George and The Dragon

George and The Dragon is actually a pub/restaurant located in Bangsar Shopping Centre on the ground floor.

My aunt and uncle strongly recommended going there to try their crispy pork knuckle which they said was even more yummylicious than El Cerdo's. (In my opinion, El Cerdo's serves the best pork!)

And so on one of the weekends, we ventured there to check it out.

Since it's more of a drinking place, their tables weren't very big and it was quite difficult to accomodate all 5 of us in the same table.

However, their food is pretty awesome! I totally forgot to take pictures of the food we ate but I remember we had bratwurst and pork ribs as well as German salad which were all delightful and very flavourful.

And then, their crispy pork knuckle...

Behold, pork rations for a whole month is here! 0_O

Anyway, their crispy pork knuckle is pretty good. Comparable to El Cerdo's I would say but not better.

It didn't have that jelak porky smell which was good. (That's the first thing I notice when I eat pork knuckle.) And the crispy bits were scrumptious!

Having said that, I didn't like their food presentation though. I mean, I know we're eating pork la but you don't have to stick the bone right in the middle like that. (I made it timber after that by taking out one of it's porky foundations. =P)

Other than that, everything else was pretty good. So if you ever crave pork, you know where to go!

Unforgettable.

Most of our lives are a series of images. They pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens, and we know in that instant that it is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.

- One Tree Hill

Warning: Picture heavy post ahead. Aaah, I haven't posted one of these in a while have I?

Anyway, these are the moments that will live on forever from my month long break between semesters. It's a bit delayed but looking at these pictures brings back the holiday mood again which provides the perfect pick-me-up in the middle of slogging though this semester.

(And Gill, I know that anonymous in my chatbox is you. So don't complain I never put up pictures liao.)

My beloved Jowee's birthday pretty much kicked off my holidays (even though I had one last paper after that). It was wonderful being able to celebrate with her and even more awesome now since I see her everyday!

We must go for that mani/pedi Wee!

Darling Adele was next. We really do need to stop going to Delicious don't we?

Oh and I remember I met Kern Wen on that day too! It was nice meeting you even though your photography skills leave much to be desired! =P

Next up, planning Wai Yee's surprise birthday (which was er...how many months late again? Whoops. It's the thought that counts, I swear!)

That's us with our hard work!




Oh, look how we've grown!



Anyway, we went to Full House for lunch and also to spend some time with Kia Shen who was back from Aussieland. Their straws are really addictive, everyone couldn't stop playing with them after we'd finished our drinks.



Belated birthday girl and I.



Oh and LOOK! I had to post this up. I think this is the first time ever that I've seen the both of them in shorts and slippers. They are usually so well-dressed! Yes, you can proceed to make fun of them now. ;)



Caught red handed in the shower. Tsk tsk. KY, what will Han Yang say hmmmm?



And this is Ri Hao, who looks quite like MJ in this photo I must say. And this was around the time the news of MJ's death broke. =/



SURPRISE! Sorry we were so late but better late than never right?

So now you guys know. If you really want to surprise someone, surprise them when they least expect it. Which would months after their birthday. Confirm your surprise will be successful. XD

The girls.

After a few round of playing King, this is what you get. Tomato red faces all round.

And Kia Shen who was super high that day kacau-ing Siok. In fact, that was probably the tipsiest I've ever seen him. =.=

I have a whole series of pictures of them kacau-ing each other. >.<

See what I mean?

Ohohoho! Bottoms up!

Our poison for the day- Absolut Kurant

aaaannddd.....

Midori.

Which in my opinion tasted like cough syrup. I know it's really expensive and all but still. Cough syrup! Supossedly, it tastes good when mixed with Coke. But we didn't have any that day.

After that, headed to Jaya One's Duck King for dinner. Ah, fun times fun times.

And here's Wee again. We were off to Bangsar for a shopping spree! And it was damn jammed so we camwhored! =D

I like this pic. It's courtesy of Wee. Another year before that P sticker comes off. Le sigh.

If you didn't already know, this is Jowee and we have been friends for 13 years and counting now.

She is the cutest ever goldfish I have ever known.

See what I mean? So comel.

As you all know, Wee and I go waaaay back and when we were younger, we used to have these 2 diaries that we would write in and exchange every 2 weeks or so just to keep in touch and update each other on our lives.

I flipped through the diaries again yesterday and oh, it was a blast of the childhood past.

Pages and pages filled with scribbles of our daily lives about boys, heartbreaks, family dramas, crushes, friends.

I feel so old just looking at it now. Oh, how we have grown and matured.

Oh hindsight though, some things still remain the same. Wee has always and will always be the more creative one, the dreamer, the optimist, the thinker, the artist. It is so evident now that I look back and see.

For example, this was written in 2006:

Jowee thinks:

• People are beautiful
• The world today is evil
• People are too judgemental
• People are too weird (and everyone is mentally challenged, since all humans are flawed anyway)
• Pink brings world peace
• Cartoons are cute and entertaining
• Being young is WAY better than being old! (Don't wanna grow up)
• Music has tremendous power
• George Bush should rot in hell
• Bigfoot could exist (Who has actually disproven it?)
• The Olympic Games rocks
• Blogging is wonderful
• Nothing is impossible

and

• Love conquers all
  

Ah, doesn't this sound like the Jowee we all know and love?

"I wanna go online and blog my brains out"

-Tee Jowee

Wee, this was written in 2006 as well when you're internet was down. And ironically, I'm waiting for your internet to be fixed NOW, so I can have my dose of Jowee everyday!

(Wee, I hope you don't mind me posting that here!)

The Cutest PickUp Line Ever...

Boy: You dropped something today.

Girl: Really, what?

Boy: My jaw.

Awwwww.

One of the ones that I think would actually work in real life as compared to nonsensical shit like "Do you have a map, cause I think I got lost in your eyes". =.=

The World Spins Madly On.

"All I know is, if you don't figure out this something, you'll just stay ordinary, and it doesn't matter if it's a work of art or a taco or a pair of socks! Just create something new, and there it is, and its you, out in the world, outside of you and you can look at it, or hear it, or read it, or feel it. And you know a little more about you. A little bit more than anyone else does. Does that make any sense at all?"

Sometimes I forget why I blog. Why I started blogging, why I still want to. And then little quotes like these remind me again. This blog is a representation of me. It may not be the best representation but still, everything here is handpicked by me, written by me. It's a little piece of my life that I want to share with you guys. I guess in a sense, this is me leaving my mark here.

I was looking through my old blog posts in Xanga the other day and I really did write some pretty amazing stuff back then. Looking back, I'm not even sure I could produce the same quality of posts now! Granted, my Xanga blog was filled with lots of stuff in my daily life, but in between those posts about my outings and holidays were some pretty meaningful posts. It may not mean much to you guys, it means a whole world to me because it reminded me of what I was thinking back then. Then again, some posts are so cryptic I have no idea what the hell I was talking about. I really need to be less cryptic when I do my occasional emo posts don't I?

Anyway, this post seems quite random but I'm just typing whatever's in my head at the moment because I can't seem to structure my thoughts anymore. There's too much stuff buzzing around up there and I have a severe case of writer's block. It feels like everything I type, write or say doesn't feel right anymore. Or that could just be me being a perfectionist.

Today was one of those happy days. It may not have been perfect, but it was a happy day. There was such a sense of possibility flaring through my veins and I felt alive again. I hope everyday will be as awesome a day as today. =)

Hence, I shall end with just a little awesome reminder about life:

Five Fashion Friends.

I know I've been stingy with updates. But but but... I'm here to introduce you guys to this new blog which I set up with Melissa, Andrea, Nicole and Kit Mun. It's called Five Fashion Friends and it's mostly about fashion, beauty, makeup and all that girly stuff. (But since my blog readers are mostly girls anyway, I figured it doesn't really matter. ^_^)

I know we're probably not the most fashionable people on earth. But we do like getting all dolled up and we have a huge interest in fashion plus the blog is a really good way for us to keep in touch style-wise. So, do gallop by and show some lurrrrvee if you're interested!

Here's the link again in case you missed it the first time:

www.fivefashionfriends.blogspot.com

So everything related to fashion, beauty and clothes shall henceforth be posted in that blog. Not that I post a lot of that here, but occasionally I do throw in a few pictures of what I wear. And I think I might just do a post in the near future on 'How To Do Swan's Crazy Eyeliner' since my makeup is usually the thing that people ask me about the most. ;) Do wait for that and check it out!

The kind of flawless I wish I could be.

I've never really believed in the whole horoscope analysis thing. But I found this one quite accurate. Scarily so in fact. Sorry if you can't read Chinese.

射手座终极分析

乐观与忧愁：射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。



现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。(So true this one!) 所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。 (Exactly! Why would you WANT to do extra work if you can do JUST the right amount and be done with it?) 所以，很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒 (Meh, I don't deny that I am lazy.)，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。



拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的.



多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，(I am materialistic at heart, I do not deny it.) 所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。



射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，(I really have been lucky on a number of occasions) 因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，(Why be like everyone else when you can be you?) 希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！ 　　


人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？ 射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。 在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。 　


人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告诉你，我很好不用担心。(Why should you let other people worry about your own shit?) 　　


在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

The last line was wayyyyy to dramatic but the rest IS pretty accurate la. Maybe this why we Sagittarius understand each other better than other people?

Currently listening to- Estrella and Zee Avi (on repeat)

Soothing muic is good for the soul.

We Think Too Much And Feel Too Little.

"What they don't understand about birthdays and what they never tell you is that when you're eleven, you're also ten, and nine, and eight, and seven, and six, and five, and four, and three, and two, and one. And when you wake up on your eleventh birthday you expect to feel eleven, but you don't. You open your eyes and everything's just like yesterday, only it's today. And you don't feel eleven at all. You feel like you're still ten. And you are—underneath the year that makes you eleven. Like some days you might say something stupid, and that's the part of you that's still ten. Or maybe some days you might need to sit on your mama's lap because you're scared, and that's the part of you that's five. And maybe one day when you're all grown up maybe you will need to cry like if you're three, and that's okay. That's what I tell Mama when she's sad and needs to cry. Maybe she's feeling three. Because the way you grow old is kind of like an onion or like the rings inside a tree trunk or like my little wooden dolls that fit one inside the other, each year inside the next one. That's how being eleven years old is."

Oh how true. I definitely don't feel 18 sometimes.

It's reassuring to know that I can still be 5 years old when I get all excited over simple things like ice-cream.

Or when I look at soft cuddly toys and feel all fuzzy inside I know that's my 8 year old self.

Or even when I make weird faces across the dinner table fully accompanied with strange noises I can feel my 10 year old self again.

Or when I'm awkward and have no idea what to say to during social situations, that's when my 12 year old self comes to life.

And then when I become all klutzy and trip and fall over everything I know that's my 14 year old self.

Or that could just be me, in general, being clumsy. =.=