Wednesday, October 14, 2009

There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

Currently listening to: Muse- The Resistance album

(Thanks to Zaleha for giving me the cd! The album is mind blowingly awesome.)

I know I haven't updated in awhile. But like I said, I have my bouts. Sometimes I feel that I have totally lost my blogging mojo and other times, I feel so pumped to blog but when I actually sit down to do it, the feeling dissapears again. I can barely latch on to it.

I still haven't fully regained my blogging mojo. So you'll have to forgive me if this post seems terribly unstructured. But I was thinking how this year has been such a blur. I haven't been blogging much and I haven't written in my journal in the longest time ever (mostly because I was busy but these last month was because I can't find it! It's probably in some box somwhere. Sigh.). So I figured I'd better list some stuff down before the year whirls by me again and I have nothing tangible to hold on to except those fragile memories.

Besides, these past few months have been very awesome and I'm afraid I won't feel this way again ever. Even when I think back now... only wisps of it emerge only to flit away again. Ah, this is what you get for being lazy Swan!

Gonna do this in point form coz it's easier (in no particular order/importance):

1. I have settled in. Really and truly now. I went back the other day to the old sanctuary. Everything felt the same yet different. But in a weird way, that reassured me. The mini fountain was still sprouting water, the white picket fence still stands proudly and the alamanda tree is as beautiful as ever. Bobby was being his usual crazy self. It was a beautiful day, that one. Big fluffy clouds littered across the sea blue sky. As I stood there looking at it, I felt bittersweet. But I didn't feel empty anymore. It was empty, most of the furniture gone with only bits and pieces scattered around, remnants of the life we had here. And I didn't feel empty anymore. I guess that's a good sign. This is home now.

2. Some people really have no idea how to behave in social situations. I am not kidding. I feel sorry for them. How do these people make friends? I was standing at the library printer the other day, waiting for the printer to spew my papers out and this dude was who was next in line was standing SO close to me that if I turned around, I probably would have collided with him head on. Jeez. Have you not heard of PERSONAL SPACE? I hate, let me say this again, ABSOLUTELY hate it when people invade my personal bubble. No matter how close you stand to me, the printer is not going to print any faster so really, why bother? I could have "accidentally" stepped back onto his foot or "accidentally" boob nudged (in Zaleha's words) him with my elbow OR even turned around and be all bitchy and go:"Excuse YOU, could please not invade my personal bubble? It's rude." But I decided to play nice and ignore him that day and walked off after I got my stuff. Meh. I was freaky dude again on campus and he was staring at non-stop. Urgh.

3. Today was a wonderful day! We went back to Pink to have lunch and I finally had my Thai style fried chicken with fried rice again after what seems like an eternity! I miss Pink, I do. Made a stop at Sunway and met Iekaaaaa! Whom I haven't seen since... LAST YEAR GRADUATION NIGHT! Can you believe it? It was great seeing her again. Briefly met Wee Guan when walking out too. And Ms. Santhi couln't recognize me. >.<>

4. 500 Days of Summer is THE must-watch movie of the year. I swear. Everyone I know who has watched it, loved it to bits. I loved it because it was real. It isn't your typical boy meets girl, BANG they get together kinda thing. Reality isn't like that and I'm glad that this movie showed it. And I loved how the movie portrayed the feeling of being in love (through that little musical number and the spring in Joseph Gordon Levitt's walk) and the feeling of being frustrated with love (how everything he loved about Zoey Deschannel turned into hate after that) and also how the way things play out in our heads never does in reality (the part where they split the screens into two, one being reality and the other fantasy). And I also like the fact that Joseph Gordon Levitt was stuck in a job he didn't really like and didn't plan for even though he studied architcture because really, that's how life is! I'm glad they didn't start off the movie with him already being an architect because that would have been so generic and typical for the protagonist to have some well-paying job but not a love life kinda thing. And the SOUNDTRACK! I so totally need to get my hands on it man.

5. I'm loving this semester in uni. It hit me one day as I walking to FTV lecture. I remember saying hi to a number of people and stopping to make small talk with a few of them. Jowee and E'a were with me and Wei Lin and Vicky were not far behind. The weather was perfect that day- breezy and not too sunny but not overtly cloudy that you'd feel depressed either. And it just hit me... that uni life here is so awesome. I love the lecturers, I love the friends I've made. And this was... home. I felt like I belonged. And I'm giving all this up to go to Aussie next year. And there was just this pang in my heart. I'm sure Aussie will be heaps of fun too, but things'll be different. I guess things are really good now and I don't it to change. But change... change is the only thing that is constant. I think I've finally learnt that by now.

6. Monash Ball 2009 was such a memorable, fun-filled night. Even though BEP was performing right below us and we couldn't be there, I didn't feel the slightest bit of regret. AND gotta thank Guiness for hosting Arthur's Day on that day coz right after prom ended, we were treated to a free fireworks display. It was beautiful indeed and a great way to end prom before we headed off to MOS to partayyy.

7. I can't believe semester is ending already. It is now Week 12. It seems like just yesterday semester started and I was so excited because Jowee saw the light and came to Monash too. ;P

And we could finally cross off Going To University Together from our childhood list of Things to Do Together/ Before We Die.

8. The problem with having a king sized bed with yummy silky sheets is that you never want to get out of bed. I would gladly hibernate for a week.

9. And here's the quote of the day:

At some point you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out; they fence you in.Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.Here's what I know. If you're willing to take the chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

-Grey's Anatomy

1 comment:

Jowee said...

i loved it when u said, the only thing that is constant is change.. its so paradoxical, i loved it.